She says I should be happy, for the misery has come to an end
she says to me that life just began
all he gave me was a mouthful of splinters
and wet eyeballs filled with fear
years and years and years
I wasted wallowing in the watery winter
I always chased the future and worried what was to come
I invested so much in him and in return got nothing' but a lump sum
he never cared or noticed that i was trapped in darkness
instead of lifting me out of it he turned his other cheek and went onward
he cheated, he lied, he stole my mind
wish i could kill him, expose him, hit rewind
i'm forever damaged and always ready for more
walls start to build thick around my once innocent inner core
my friend, she says she hates him
when she runs into him at bars she won't even straight face him
he doesn't understand what it was he did
he tells me we're meant to be because we fell in love when we were kids
i look the other way , i must stay strong
i accompany myself with my best friend, my bong
as i exhale my soul dances up high
but when i inhale it back it sinks and it dies
she says i will make it through this, it just takes time
she buys me shot of jose cuervo and lime
let this numb your pain for a while, flower child
let it all go , throw your sadness and burn it with the rest of the pile
she tells me to run far away and accept no apologies
i decided to get lost in hippie music anthologies
and though my body remained in the same old room
my mind sparked and sprinted from all the doom
I will never return to the unilluminated world I once resided in.
For this light, so gigantic, has shaken my soul
and it feels as though, it's frolicking inside of me,
dancing with the wind my body feels from the outside.
I am one with the universe now.
Excitement turns into peace as
I calmly stroke the barks of the trees
their branches begin to sway
to the movement of the open air,
which opens my heart.
Dragon flies, the size of crows smile
at me as they pass…
the starless tunnel, that was consuming me
shot me back up into the colorful world!
I am here. Now.
And that's all that will ever matter to me.