when the party ends

you went to a rooftop party, last night, to get your mind out of your slump

but you only found yourself looking for a good spot to jump

it's all over anyway, you thought with watery eyes

people think you're wise but little do they know that you're hiding in disguise

on the train ride home you contemplated his energy fueled lovin'

and now that he's gone the only thing you can do is keep on trucking

it's daylight now, as you return to your loft

birds whisper chimes to each other, the sounds are so soft

but your mattress is hard, your empty walls are hard, your heart : a rock

when he came he swooped down and bit out your insides, just like a hawk

you really start to learn how backwards the world is when you reveal your true love to be a faker 

you stand, exiled in the shadowy void, existing only with hatred

why do things gotta be this way? : you think

you were left there to cry, left there to die, left there to sink.

nothing but you and all your battle wounds

no desire or direction for anywhere light, some nights you just follow the moon.

he's somewhere out in america, somewhere warm

he's livin' in a pace as fast as the particles swimming blindly around in a dust storm.

yet your still living the norm, because that's the way he left you

you sit in his chair, stranded, hoping just anybody would accept you

you crack open another budweiser, you have no place to be

wearily singing "hey mr. tambourine man, play a song for me"

but such a tune won't even help

not even a tambourine man can save you from yourself

you sleep off most of the days to avoid despair

but the winter has gone, it's spring time and all that surrounds you is the love in the air

it's like 1,001 tiny knifes all trying to claim your life

you pray to a god you don't even know, just to get through the night.

01

how are ya gonna catch the damn airplane

if ya can't see? you left yer glasses on my window

cill let's just hope those cute lil raccoons don't git

t them before you do, or even worse, at the same time

you do, they're known to go wild on thursdays and

they could make you uglier than you already are

not that it's a bad thing. you can always git a face

job. i'll get old uncle bilbo t set you up with his

surgeon. says it costs two chickens and some

sweet talkin. don't worry, you have a lot goin for ya.

clearly yours,

mama helmet

Here at Sunset

you always want the one you don't have.

and the one that you do have is always there.

and the one you don't disappears as fast

as the long island railroad going past

and you wanna believe that everything

happens for a reason, like the myth of

demeter and her daughter with the seasons

but you just can't seem to get things right

no matter how hard you try, sometimes you

wonder if you'll even survive. and your friends

start to change but then you think to yourself " maybe it's me"

your falling far away from them like the leaves from the trees

in autumn. and the last time you saw them they

were hounding you bout your new style or new love

and sometimes you look to the sky up above and

hope you're a reincarnation of someone who was

so fantastic. but when you look down, you spit

on the ground cause you know that the world is plastic.

and at one time it wasn't and you're nostalgic of those

times even though you weren't born yet and to you

they only exist in ancient genius' rhymes.

like how you feel old poets are your only friends sometimes

and all you wanna do is cry but your tears don't form

you must have ran out of them during your last soul shattering storm

and then in comes someone who convinces you he's warm

but he's just the same, as him, as you as them

you learned to tell peoples motives by looking into

their dilated pupils. and it's always loop-holes and mouthfuls of

manipulated morons trying to kill the high your on.

and everyone starts turning into the big bad wolf, you're so sick

and you wish you listened to your mama when she told you

to build that house made of bricks, but now his breath flown you

and your drifting in the mix. and you fall and land on your head

and your clothes are shred. and you see a little cute froggy

but turns out your misled and then he steals the only thing you have left.

and you can't scream theft! cause you're so deep in those woods

and you'd do anything you could for things to change

because you're so fed up and deranged

with always being the saddest girl

and sometimes you wanna say "i hate the world"

but what you don't realize yet that these times, these places,

and faces, hover over every single page you write

and sometimes they kill you like an alligator bite

but you should takes these ideas and tie em to a kite

and let the clouds carry them so you're soul and the sky can reunite

you're words will marry the atmosphere, like when the day marries the night

when the sky turns orange.

- Marilyn Metzger

January 4th 2012